I Felt It

Last night and today have been very spiritually uplifting for me. I often wander through my days and weeks not feeling much of anything because I am too busy, or caring for a unruly nine month old. I am so grateful I was able to go to the General Relief Society meeting last night. Prior to it beginning I was complaining to Elizabeth about how all of the things that I would like to do, like playing the piano {because I'd have to buy one}, or graphic design {need fancy programs}, and photography {need a better camera}, all require one thing, MONEY. Then I begin comparing myself to others, saying "She's so great, she can do everything..." and "I just wish I could do such-and-such..." Then, dear, sweet Elizabeth always makes me feel better by making me aware of the things that I am good at. {love her}

When President Uchdorff got up to speak, I was enthralled. He was speaking to ME. ONLY to me. No one else. The point that stuck out to me the most, is that us, as humans, have a need to create things, to take unorganized matter and bring something into existence that wasn't there before. That doesn't mean amazing curtains, or the best baked bread, but making memories, or creating a smile. Us as mothers, actively participate with God in creating children. That was what I needed. I may not be a fantastic housekeeper, cook, scrapbooker, chef, but I have created three of the most incredible beings on this planet. And for that, I am an amazing person. I have this fire in me now to serve. I was so touched by Sarah's lesson in RS today. I felt the spirit she brought to the lesson, and have a desire to serve my sisters. President Hinkley said to the elderly woman who lost her husband "Work will cure your grief, serve others." I know that is true, and that is my goal. Alleviate the grief and despair that I feel some of the time by working and serving. I am so grateful for the First Presidency and their love for us as women. I am blessed to be surrounded by amazing women that share their testimonies and uplift me.